Confused

It may seem a very depressing post to you all. But, As it's the place where I want to be what I am. So, I am writing whatever I am feeling right now.

Feeling very low. nothing seems to be positive. I am still not clear what I want out of myself. Though I know the value of my Job, I know how hard I fought to get this job, this position. Still not contented with whatever I am doing.

I know, I don't love my ex anymore, still whenever he calls me up. His conversations leave me depressed and I wander why I pick up his calls. Can't I tell him, just get lost. Not I think I can never do that.

I know, I am about to get married may be in a year or 6 months. But still not excited.

Though many people tell me, you look good, still I get jealous looking at other beautiful ladies sometimes.

I don't know where I am going. I really don't know what I want??? One of my friend was telling me that We "Leos" have very frequent mood swings. May be it's one of those bad days.

Thanks for bearing the depressing post.

Yeah one more update: May we need to work for one more hour from this week. It's really tough to be a "Corporate Bitch"