Love Is Magic ....

So, early morning, Me and my buddy had a short conversation. He was convincing me on how lucky I am being single while I was trying to prove him that he has his own benefits of being in a relationship. Really, sometimes, if we keep aside marriage, career and possessiveness, then how beautiful it feels being in love. Just the two of you know, how deeply you care about the other person. Those short messages, calls, leg pulling make us feel so special. At least someone is there who belongs to your soul. Nobody can snatch away those special moments, memories and feelings from you. Really it feels great to be in love and lo be loved by the one whom you love. And as I always say and believe: "Love is Magic"and nobody knows when this magic leaves you with memories you will cherish for lifetime. So, Keep Loving and Keep Rocking.

Love,
Ann

Being Married

So life has been a roller coaster ride in this past one year... discussions, arguments, disagreements, fights, love, emotions are few words to sum up this past 11 months journey.

Well, we all have a picture for perfect married life, expectations related to our partner. But when the reality strikes, it can be a totally different picture from what we have imagined. The same happened to us :) .. the dream land became argument land and then confusions, tears, misbehavior took place of love. I think most of the married people can relate to me while the unmarried can imagine my situation. So, like every other couple we had our share of fights and disagreements. In this short span of time I have understood that even if you have get lot of ideas from other married couple about this concept married, but being married is totally a different experience which you can understand only after getting married. You can be  in your worst version at a moment while at the other moment you feel like sacrificing your everything for your better half. The same happened to us.

So, after completing 11 months, I can say that we both have accepted each other the way we are and now we know that no one is perfect. We miss each other's company whenever we are far away. Love is blooming... and now I can totally relate to one of my good friends words: the first year of every married life is very crucial and is the foundation for your married life especially if it is an arranged marriage.

Next month on 22nd January, we will be celebrating our first anniversary and hope the coming years be filled with joy, happiness and love. Here is a song (from the movie PK) dedicated to this new relationship.

Ms. Engaged :)

Well, it's been a while, I being away from my space. Although I missed the "Moments" (the blog) a lot but something or the other kept me occupied. So, now am back and that too with a good and a BIG news. The day I had been waiting since I got the sense of the world, has finally arrived in my life too. Long wait, anticipations, bad moods have finally bought me something worth waiting for. OK enough of this foundation..

Here it goes. I am engaged !!! :) yes I am .. The day I had visualized again and again in my lifespan till now has finally become the reality. So, guys I am engaged to a wonderful person and I am Happy :) . Love is in the Air and I am loving it...

It's a beautiful feeling I must say. Now there are no hurries and no worries. No insecurities and no possessiveness. I know this person is whom I was waiting for and will be there for me always. Amen ! As they say, It's a new beginning. I hope this new road take both of us to a beautiful journey with loads of pleasant surprises ahead. We both need your best wishes and luck.


I will be sharing more stories of this new beginning with you all... :)


Love you all.
Ann 

Why Life is Soo Tough

After a very long time, I felt bad for somebody else. Yesterday, we went to one of our distant relative's home. She is my maternal aunt. Few months back her husband expired due to sudden organ failure (I dnt know the exact term). Since it was my off, my mom asked me to accompany her  as my aunt wanted to see her. I thought it would be a change for me as well. We went there. But by the end of the day, when we returned back, I was quite upset.

Reason: Long story in short:

My Aunt had 4 daughters and a Son who is the youngest one. Well, All the 4 daughters got married
in well off families and their son is in garduation last year. But the youngest daughter is going through her divorce (her husband used to beat her up). In this process, all the peace and harmony of the house was lost. Last year she went USA, to give her husband the last chance. But that creep really made her life hell there. This led her to take the final decision that she wants a divorce. In the mean time, my uncle expired, which was quite unexpected and my cousin (the girl battling for divorce) could not see her father in his last time as she was in USA. When she returned back, they got the news that my aunt is also not well as her kedneys have stopped working. Doctors have told them that she would not survive long. After listening all this, I was so upset, that how God could be so harsh on some people. And I am most worried about their brother who is hardly 22 years old, he would be left alone without his parents in this world. I wrote this post just to take my feelings out. I cant show my worries to my mom, otherwise she'll be upset too. Please friends pray for my aunt that she may live long at least till their son gets settle down.

Nothing much to say now... Take Care,
Ann

 

Mission Groom Hunting

So, after much chaos, finally, my parents have told me to find a suitable match for myself.. And they'll do other formalities after that.. It doesn't mean that I'll start searching for boyfriends now. But, yeah, now I'll be searching guys on matrimonial websites myself and will contact them. If I approve them, them parents will come into the pucture.. So, yesterday, I screened 4 guys and contacted them myself.. It might sound awkward to some of you .. but now it has become a do and die situation for me.. as my parents have given me the deadline and I have to meet that.. Lolzz...It makes me feel like as if I'm on a mission "Dulaha Dhundo" (Goom hunting).. Anyways, back to the track.. so, I spoke to few guys and 2 of them were nice.. One responded back and was very smart to talk to.. I don't know whom I'll be getting married to but ya, this is a new experience for me and now I can give advice on groom hunting apart from job hunting and boyfriends.. Let's see what's stored in for me NEXT !!!

Isn't it worth to Wait ?

Listening to "Tinka Tinka" song from the movie "turning 30". It's a beautiful song and I cud actually relate to it. There comes a time in life when u actually, truly feel aloofed inside and out. No one approves your decisions as you've become dependent on them, living in their house. I have been realising this thing since I've quit my job. Till the time, I had my job and used to nod at every thing my parents used to tell me, I was a good daughter. My decisions were approved. But, now since I am jobless, don't have a boy friend who wants to marry me or (whome I want to marry), surving alone, Now I have become good for nothing in everyone's eyes. I can't take my decisions. I can't go for outing with my friends. People come and tell me that I am ruining my life sitting idel at home and to make it worse they advice me to get married as soon as possible to whomesoever my parents approve.

Don't I have the right to choose a guy for myself just becoz I'm jobless and getting old? Rather than spending next 30 years of mysery with a person, isn't it worth to wait for the right person to come and spend some less years (but happy moments) with the one I love. I don't know, where life will lead me but I know I will fight till I live and will marry only the one whome I find suitable for myself. Rightnow, I urgently need a job, so that I can move out of my parents home and live on my own.

Confused or Scared? Trying to figure it Out ..

So, finally am relieved from my organisation and it's a bit relief. The weekend was great as I met my old B.N.A.G.S. members: Mrs. S and Mrs. B.. It sounds so strange no. Well, we enjoyed a lot. Now am sitting at home and again the dilemma has started surrounding me. I'm still confused and clueless what exactly I want in various areas of my life. I know, I overthink stuff sometimes, but I need to get it out in any case. So, back to the topic, what I exactly want? Let's start with career. Then, I'll discuss other areas.

Career: Sometimes, I think that I'm done with all what I'd ever wish to achieve and don't want to work anymore. But at the next moment, I think no, I want to be independent as I can't ask my parents for money. It's against my ego or self respect(you might say).

Marriage: Now comes the next hot topic. Well, I will admit that I've always dreamt of that fairy tale and have been waiting for the Mr. Right. But, sometimes, I think no I can't shackle myself to anyone for lifetime, it will suffocate me. Oh god, how horrible.

Partner: If people ask me that what kind of partner you want? I can't explain it. As sometimes even an ordinary looking man attracts me while on the next moment I want a high profile person, whome I can respect and introduce to everyone as if I've won a trophy. Lolz..

Driving: This is the last and the recent concern. My parents ask me to learn driving. Even I want to do that so that I can drive wherever I want to but something incide me holds me back to do so as am scared of accidents.

So, in short, I am not able to understand whether I am confused or scared? Can't I make decisions or are my fears overwhelming me? Really, I need to get a job fast I suppose. Till then, I'll try to figure it out, what I want?

Mann nahi lag raha bilkul bhi :(

Well a lot is going around me and in my head these days which worries me sometimes. While on one moment I think, I need not to worry as everything would be fine in few days, it causes a strange kind of anxiety sometimes. For instance:

I am waiting to be relieved from this hell (my present organisation). They are not paying me as I have to serve the notice period and I've broken the one year bond. This is driving me crazy almost as I'm left with no money now.

Secondly, people are trying to get into my nerves as they ask me when are you planning to get married? As if they have to arrange for the dowry money.. What the hell.. I definitely will get married, once I find a suitable guy who finds me suitable for himself as well (as it should be from both the sides.)..

Third, I have very little balance in my mobile, that's the most important issue as I can't call my friends as frequently as I used to and can't give missed calls every time as it is against my ethics. No offences to those girlfriends who have boyfriends who call them back on giving missed calls.

So, in short, I'm not feeling good at all about anything. It's the time to grab a chocolate, I suppose. And thanks for bearing a ranting post..

Take Care,
Ann

Wondering ...

Like everyday, today started with a yoga session and after that I ate a delicious breakfast Aloo ka parantha with my favorite strong chai. Early morning, they were showing "Kabhi Alvida Na Kehna" - one of my all time favorites on Set Max. While watching the movies, various thoughts were coming to my mind like why people go out of their marriage when their partner is so loving and caring. May be their expectations don't match or may be something else. Why we crave for more and more and why we look flaws in our partner rather than accepting them as they are? I know many people who have spent more than a decade with their partner, and still say that they are not happy in their marriage. But touchwood, I can say that my parents are deeply and madly in love with each other. They don't do aything special. But those small small things like my mom listens to my father quitely when he gets angry (though he hardly gets angry on her) and my father sharing every happiness and sorrow with her and there are many instances which I feel make them one of the loving couples.

So, back to the topic. What it requires to make a marriage successfull. What a wife or husband needs to do to keep things interesting and long lasting. I'm single. May be I'll get answers to these questions, when I myself will get married. But, still since I am idle these days, I think about these things more. Those in relationship or married, If you have any tips or tricks for singles or those looking forward to marriage, please share.

Till Later,

Love ya,

Ann