Weekend !!!

As Promised I am back with some pictures that I clicked last weekend.. Though I am not a good photographer, but I have this inclination towards clicking pictures: So, here it goes:

It was heavily raining last saturday.. and this was a beautiful view in front of my house.

You can see the small droplets on the road.. It was flooded with clear water..

















ISCKON Temple Entrance (East of Kailash)


Well these were the few, which I found best.. I hope, you will like them too..

It's very late now.. I got to go..

Till then,
Take Care,
Love you all,
Ann

Dil behlaane ko khayal achha hai Ghalib

So, I am busy with studies these days and am actually quite satisfied with how life is moving on. Stopped expecting and planning things. Yesterday lying on my bed, gazing at the ceiling fan, I was actually thinking what next??? I have always heard and believed that we get what we want from the core of our heart. There is a dialogue from a very famous movie of Shah Rukh Khan: "Tum ko paane ki maine itni shiddat se chaahat ki hai, ki har zarre ne mujhe tum se milaane ki koshish ki hai" (I tried so hard to be with you, that the whole universe actually conspired to help me get you).. So, in short, it can be said that, if we really, actually want something, it actually materializes.

But now the thought seems a bit unrealistic. For me, Love has always been the first priority of my life. Though some people might not agree with this, but I've always waited for someone to love me and someone whome I could love without being in a fear of losing him. Several guys came and went and left some great moments to cherish or added bad experience to my life but nothing could actually materialise into a happy love stroy that ended well. Either I didn't like the (who approached me) or they were commitment phobic or they were just interested in physical intimacy. So, the end result; remained single for most of the time and craved for love. Now I think, is Love a mirage in desert which we see indesert but when we actually reach there, it's not there. My family is now looking forward to get me married as soon as possible. Though I also want to get marriead and settle down but sometimes, the idea of an arranged marriage suffocates me. How can I shackle myself with a person just after a formal meeting and that too without being in love. Would it not be difficult to spend rest of my life with such a person, in case I never fall in love with him.

Though I keep myself busy in studies, but this idea sometimes haunts me. I even see nightmares related to marriage that I got married to the son of some Sarpanch (head of the village). Lol. But I don't have any other option as I could not find even a single courageous man who could take stand for me. I don't know what lies ahead, but just hope that I get married to a person whom I like at least (if not love). Amen!

P.S. : I am not disturbed. But I had to take it out anyways. And yeah, Happy weekend to all :)

Weather in Delhi is awesome these days..I clicked some pics.. You might not be able to see the rain in the pics, but I found the scene beautiful and clicked some. As I could not find the data cable so, will post the pics in my next post.

Till then take care,
Love,
Ann

Nothing is Permanent

I have learnt and accepted the fact that "Nothing is parmanent"; neither our friends, family nor the hapiness aur the pain we face. Nobody or nothing is going to stay with us for whole our life. Situations change and so the people. So, after accepting this, I am enjoying my life now. Living for the moment and tring to make memories that I'll cherish. Few days back, I joined an institute to prepare for Govt. Job and there I made few friends. Some became good friends. So, it was kind of a great change for me.. I felt as if I am back in my college life.. So, this new friend of mine, initially, he tried to flirt with me. But now we have become good friends. We shared our stoties, experiences and our dreams. We enjoyed speding time with each other. Yesterday was our last class. We exchanged our no's and promised to remain in touch. He was sad and told me Why didn't we met earlier so, we could spend some more time with each other. And I told him that may be this little time we've spent together will make us smile when we will be alone..

That time I realised, I have grown up. Now things like loss, parting or any sorrow do not affect me. I enjoy the moment without clinging on the other person or situation and then move on to make new memories. I don't know whether we will be able to see each other again or not.. but yes, this change was good and I'm looking forward to meet such wonderful people in Future as well!

Mission Groom Hunting

So, after much chaos, finally, my parents have told me to find a suitable match for myself.. And they'll do other formalities after that.. It doesn't mean that I'll start searching for boyfriends now. But, yeah, now I'll be searching guys on matrimonial websites myself and will contact them. If I approve them, them parents will come into the pucture.. So, yesterday, I screened 4 guys and contacted them myself.. It might sound awkward to some of you .. but now it has become a do and die situation for me.. as my parents have given me the deadline and I have to meet that.. Lolzz...It makes me feel like as if I'm on a mission "Dulaha Dhundo" (Goom hunting).. Anyways, back to the track.. so, I spoke to few guys and 2 of them were nice.. One responded back and was very smart to talk to.. I don't know whom I'll be getting married to but ya, this is a new experience for me and now I can give advice on groom hunting apart from job hunting and boyfriends.. Let's see what's stored in for me NEXT !!!

Isn't it worth to Wait ?

Listening to "Tinka Tinka" song from the movie "turning 30". It's a beautiful song and I cud actually relate to it. There comes a time in life when u actually, truly feel aloofed inside and out. No one approves your decisions as you've become dependent on them, living in their house. I have been realising this thing since I've quit my job. Till the time, I had my job and used to nod at every thing my parents used to tell me, I was a good daughter. My decisions were approved. But, now since I am jobless, don't have a boy friend who wants to marry me or (whome I want to marry), surving alone, Now I have become good for nothing in everyone's eyes. I can't take my decisions. I can't go for outing with my friends. People come and tell me that I am ruining my life sitting idel at home and to make it worse they advice me to get married as soon as possible to whomesoever my parents approve.

Don't I have the right to choose a guy for myself just becoz I'm jobless and getting old? Rather than spending next 30 years of mysery with a person, isn't it worth to wait for the right person to come and spend some less years (but happy moments) with the one I love. I don't know, where life will lead me but I know I will fight till I live and will marry only the one whome I find suitable for myself. Rightnow, I urgently need a job, so that I can move out of my parents home and live on my own.

The Alchemist

Hi All !

It's been long time, since I wrote. Actually, a lot had been going on in life though, but I didn't feel like writing. After 4 months of brainstorming that what I actually want, now I've decided to prepare for govt. job like a Bank job or so.. a it will be good from long term perspective. Moreover, I think, I'm done with the corporate culture and can't continue like this for long.

Next, I read the book: "Alchemist". The Alchemist details the journey of a young Andalusian shepherd boy named Santiago. Santiago, believing a recurring dream to be prophetic, decides to travel to the pyramids of Egypt to find treasure. I had heard a lot about the book and it's really worth it. Here are some lines from the book which, I loked the most:

"I'm like everyone else - I see the world in terms of what I would like to seehappen, not what actually does."

"Making a decision was only the beginning of the things. When someone makes a decision, he is really diving into a strong current that will carry him to places he had never dreamed of when he first made the decision."

This one is my favorite: When the boy meets the gal "Fatima" - love of his life and how she expresses her immense trust and love to him: "I am a desert woman, and I'm proud of that. I want my husband to wander as free as the wind that shapes the dunes. And, if he does not returns, I will accept the fact that he has become a part of the clouds, and the animals and the water of the desert."

Quote No 4: "Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time."

And the last one: "It's true; life really is generous to those who persue their destiny"

These were few of the quotes, I hope, you liked them. Will be sharing more updates soon. Till then, Love you all and wish u a Very Happy and Safe Holi. Enjoy!!

Confused or Scared? Trying to figure it Out ..

So, finally am relieved from my organisation and it's a bit relief. The weekend was great as I met my old B.N.A.G.S. members: Mrs. S and Mrs. B.. It sounds so strange no. Well, we enjoyed a lot. Now am sitting at home and again the dilemma has started surrounding me. I'm still confused and clueless what exactly I want in various areas of my life. I know, I overthink stuff sometimes, but I need to get it out in any case. So, back to the topic, what I exactly want? Let's start with career. Then, I'll discuss other areas.

Career: Sometimes, I think that I'm done with all what I'd ever wish to achieve and don't want to work anymore. But at the next moment, I think no, I want to be independent as I can't ask my parents for money. It's against my ego or self respect(you might say).

Marriage: Now comes the next hot topic. Well, I will admit that I've always dreamt of that fairy tale and have been waiting for the Mr. Right. But, sometimes, I think no I can't shackle myself to anyone for lifetime, it will suffocate me. Oh god, how horrible.

Partner: If people ask me that what kind of partner you want? I can't explain it. As sometimes even an ordinary looking man attracts me while on the next moment I want a high profile person, whome I can respect and introduce to everyone as if I've won a trophy. Lolz..

Driving: This is the last and the recent concern. My parents ask me to learn driving. Even I want to do that so that I can drive wherever I want to but something incide me holds me back to do so as am scared of accidents.

So, in short, I am not able to understand whether I am confused or scared? Can't I make decisions or are my fears overwhelming me? Really, I need to get a job fast I suppose. Till then, I'll try to figure it out, what I want?