I Miss You

Some grudges and wounds leave their marks forever. No matter, how many years pass, somewhere down the line we all still feel hurt for some or the other loss. Today I was just discussing things with one of my friends. And yeah, we are sailing on the same boat I suppose. Not able to come out of our respective pasts.

I know I gave my 100% to my previous relationship, still it didn't work out. I know he didn't deserve me. I know he was not that into me. Still, why do I still miss him. At the end of the Day, why I ask God what went wrong? Can't he come back and say "Yes I love you and I need you". I know It's not gonna happen. Still we keep hoping for things.

Rite now, I am neither hurt nor happy, but still feel something is missing.

Friends Forever

I am feeling very happy today. You must be wondering why? Actually my best friend came to see me in my office. I know it's not a big deal as compared to what he has done for me in past 7-8 years. Tolerated my impatient behavior, supported through my thick and thins, always motivated me to do better and achieve whatever I wanted to and much more which I can't explain on this Blog. He came here just to see me as our work schedules don't allow us to meet otherwise. Though I was telling him not to come as we can not meet our friends in office for more than 10-15 minutes. But he took all the pain to come and see me. And now I am feeling that these small efforts and things really matter a lot to make the bond more stronger. Feeling too good about it. At least a small change in my daily routine filled me with all the positive energy. And I am happy that I am blessed with so many wonderful people.

Enjoying

As they say Women love Make up and Shopping when they are depressed. This is true for me. Yesterday, I was feeling not so Good, went home, slept, woke up and listened to some of my favorite songs. Another hectic Day was ahead of me. So, to make it more interesting and refreshing, I decided to put my new dress, which I bought last weekend (that shopping was also done to cheer me up). So, finally I put the dress, put some make up and left for the Office. And see what, I was already feeling Gooood. Alps and Samy gave me nice complements. We clicked some picture and believe me Samy is a great photographer. So, we clicked some pics. People were giving nice complements and all this filled me with loads of positive energy and here I am now, happy, relaxed and working positively. So, Ladies, believe me it works!!! Do some changes, and feel good about it. After all, it's all about the inner contentment :)

And one more thing, Happy Weekend :) Do lots of shopping, go out with friends and Enjoy...

I know, I deserve it :(

As always I am not happy with the things, as they are proceeding. Everybody is getting promotions but I am not. The more frustrating thing is I know I am better than them, but still they got it because they begged for it before me. Sorry, but I don't understand the concept, why don't seniors get into our shoes and feel our pain. Why we need to remind them, hey we need a promotion. Can't they see that we are doing good and this time we need to be on a better position. I am really pissed off. Though I am not happy with my job profile, but I know I am giving my more than 100%, still not getting what I want.

Anyways, not in a mood to talk. Feeling very bad, talked to a friend, but could not explain him my pain ( As I don't prefer cribbing in front of everybody).

Still ....

So, I stayed up till 2:30 a.m last night just to find out How these Guys (Ryan, Hari and Alok) managed to get their degree. Loved reading the novel: "Five Point Someone". Honestly, while reading the book, I missed my hostel days (which I always do anyways). Still thinking about my dream Boy "Ryan". Yup! after reading the complete Novel, I still love him, despite the fact that he was the lowest performer in his batch. So what? grades don't make you a better person in any manner. See Love is Blind. LOL. Yeah I am missing those characters, especially RYAN. Hope he exists somewhere, and if he reads this, please do let me know Buddy !!! As I am waiting for you :)

I'm Loving It

So, here is the new interest of my life. He's keeping my mind occupied all the times. Yes, I love him. I just love him. Okay, Okay, enough of the Suspense. All of you must be wondering, who is he? and why all of a sudden, this Gal is talking in a strange manner?
Okay, So, he is "Ryan". I love "Ryan". Yup ! I can say it as louder as I can. He is confident, good looking, fun-loving, a fitness freak like me and above all he's just like my Dream Man. The man I have been looking for since I understood the meaning of Love but not found yet. I know, I have had my own share of experiences with Guys, and dated some LOSERS, but they didn't have the potential to be called as "MY MAN". But As far as Ryan is concerned, he's the ULTIMATE person. May be not of your kinds, but he's the one I have been looking for.

I know next question is how did I meet him. So here it goes, One of my Good Friend had given me this Novel: "Five Point Someone" by Chetan Bhagat. And "Ryan" is one of the characters from the three main Guys of the Story. I hope I haven't disappointed you all. I know this is something really CRAZY. You must be wondering, how could anyone, fall in love with a character from a Novel. But, it is So. Ryan is just Awesome. He lives for the moment, loves his friends, holds his own opinion for situations. Though he's one of the under performers in his class, he has got that Grey matter to make things work. I really love this "Ryan" character. I don't know, whether I would ever find a Guy like him but yes, one thing I am sure about is that he's just like my "Dream Man". He's my Hero these days (Even I believe in living for the Moment). I have just read half of the Novel, but I am enjoying exploring more about him.

Social Networking Websites: Big NO for me

As always, a question is popping again and again in my mind and now it's the time to throw it out of my system (As I always do). At this point of time, I can say that I don't believe in making new friends. My old friends are enough to make me laugh or share a thought whenever I need them, they are there for me. To be more precise I don't put effort to make friends now, according to me it should be a natural thing. If I find someone whose intellect matches with mine, he/she is most welcome but I don't have time for nonscence talkers.

But things got a bit boring for past few weeks. After almost two years of single hood, I got bored living the same life daily. Get up early in the morning, do some excersice, get ready for office, work hard, achieve targets, get back to the home and then go to sleep. I wanted some change. So, as suggested by a good friend of mine, I joined a social networking site in hope of finding a great friend. But, my illusion broke in a few days and I came to the conclusion, that finding a real friend in a virtual world (on internet) is difficult. From my experience, I feel, people use such websites just for the sake of having fun or to discuss stuff which they don't have guts to share with somebody face to face. They just want to talk dirty and if you don't do that they'll tell that you are not open minded.

I am really pissed off. C'mon people, wake up. We are in 21th century. I can very well discuss sex and other things openly. But the discussion should be healthy not the cheap stuff. Like if someone is my close friend (no matter girl or boy) and we are having a healthy discussion on some very personal. I won't mind sharing my thought with them, but discussing things on social networking websites that too when you don't know the other person's frame of mind is a big NO for me at least. If people are that desperate, I would suggest go and watch a porno and help the website owners generate some business.

Anyways, that was not a great experience for me, so I would stick to what I believe in. Making friends in real world not in the virtual world. Though the virtual world seems to be more attractive, but I love to be in the real world and want to live with real people.